Finding the Christmas Spirit

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I have a confession to make. It’s been years since I’ve felt the Christmas spirit. I’ve gone through the motions; decorating the house, listening to Christmas music, watching Christmas movies, baking cookies, getting together with family and friends. And though all of it has been lovely, I did not feel the spirit move within me. Now I’m not a religious person, but I am a spiritual one so I do believe in a higher power, something larger than ourselves. But it has been difficult to feel that when I see Christmas marketed for it’s retail value or watch people on the news trample over one another to get “the deal” at some big box store. Clearly something is missing here. But then, this week something happened.

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My brother Ted passed away this week. He had been fighting a losing battle with cancer and spent his last days in the hospital trying to manage the pain. Thankfully my sister Darlene was able to be there at his side. And though most of us could not be there, we did send him letters via email, which sis read to him. But she did more than that. She gave each of us a gift also. She sent all the letters out so that we could read what everyone wrote. As I read each one, my heart filled with joy. These messages spoke of Ted’s kindness, his generous heart, his beautiful smile, and his creative spirit. He was an inspiration to each of us on so many levels. Those loving words of my family for Ted has reawakened the Christmas spirit in me. After all, the spirit of the season is really all about love and family.

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From now on I will think of Christmas as Ted’s day, with his love and light shining through each of us.

May the spirit move within you this holiday season and keep with you all of your days.

xo

ps – linking up with Kim Klassen’s Friday Finds. Hope you’ll have a chance to go there as well.

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9 Responses to Finding the Christmas Spirit

  1. Jana says:

    Oh my dear friend – I am so sorry for your loss, but what a gift the picture of you with him is, how beautiful his light, his smile, his warmth just emanates through that shot, there is a peace in him one rarely sees. My heart goes out to all of you with love – JBV

  2. Such a beautiful post, I call it Carol’s Post because you have a way with words. Always heartfelt, meaningful and a blessing to all that read your blog. My heartfelt sympathy to you and your family today.

  3. I am so sorry to hear about your brother, Carol. Your touching words brought a tear to my eye. And how very inspirational to hear how you’re turning a huge sadness into something uplifting and positive. I wish you peace and joy for the holidays. All the best, Bonny

  4. seabluelee says:

    Carol, what a beautiful tribute to your brother. I’m glad your family was able to share in his last days even though you couldn’t all be together. It’s a blessing that you have such wonderful memories. I’m so sorry for your loss, but what a special gift…to find the Christmas spirit, through his spirit.

  5. Nancy says:

    Your heart comes through loud and clear and I am sure your brother felt all the love of his family as each of you expressed to him how very dear he was to you. I am sorry for your loss but glad he touched you in such a special way as to enjoy the true sprit of Christmas….

  6. What a lovely tribute to your brother . My thoughts are with you and yours.

  7. Beth says:

    Carol,

    I think that the Christmas spirit is something so special it is reserved for us for when we need it the most; as you do now.

    Blessings to you and your family.

    Beth

  8. Cheryl M says:

    Christmas SHOULD be about love and family, I totally agree. I am struggling this year (and have for several years) to really FEEL what Christmas is really all about.
    So sorry for the loss of your brother. Cancer is an UGLY disease!
    LOVE your images!

  9. Donna says:

    Carol, A few years ago, we spent Christmas in the hospital as my husband was preparing to undergo a stem cell transplant to treat his second battle with cancer. Ever since that difficult season of our life, every day has felt like a blessing, and the Christmas spirit has been easier to come by. I’m sorry that loss and pain and grief are sometimes the best teachers for us all, but I am grateful that your loss is bringing you clarity and hope. Your post has me in tears because. . . well, I don’t know exactly why. . only that bittersweet feeling.

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