I have a confession to make. It’s been years since I’ve felt the Christmas spirit. I’ve gone through the motions; decorating the house, listening to Christmas music, watching Christmas movies, baking cookies, getting together with family and friends. And though all of it has been lovely, I did not feel the spirit move within me. Now I’m not a religious person, but I am a spiritual one so I do believe in a higher power, something larger than ourselves. But it has been difficult to feel that when I see Christmas marketed for it’s retail value or watch people on the news trample over one another to get “the deal” at some big box store. Clearly something is missing here. But then, this week something happened.
My brother Ted passed away this week. He had been fighting a losing battle with cancer and spent his last days in the hospital trying to manage the pain. Thankfully my sister Darlene was able to be there at his side. And though most of us could not be there, we did send him letters via email, which sis read to him. But she did more than that. She gave each of us a gift also. She sent all the letters out so that we could read what everyone wrote. As I read each one, my heart filled with joy. These messages spoke of Ted’s kindness, his generous heart, his beautiful smile, and his creative spirit. He was an inspiration to each of us on so many levels. Those loving words of my family for Ted has reawakened the Christmas spirit in me. After all, the spirit of the season is really all about love and family.
From now on I will think of Christmas as Ted’s day, with his love and light shining through each of us.
May the spirit move within you this holiday season and keep with you all of your days.
ps – linking up with Kim Klassen’s Friday Finds. Hope you’ll have a chance to go there as well.